After a couple of months away.. i decided to give this blog thing a shot.. its very hard for me to express myself through the written word.. even though i admire all writers just for putting it out there.. you expose yourself so much.. i dunno how the guys in incubus make it.. their music has so much soul.. so much feeling.. it feels so personal, like taking a peek through the keyhole at their private thoughts. I always thought i could write well.. after all im a huge book worm.. i read even things i hate in the hope that till the end of the story, things are boud to get better. But then comes the rules and guidelines on how to write .. they just kill that creative bud right at the beginning.. Uni didn´t help either.. i quickly learned that you can only write an interresting cientific paper that is actually pleasant to read if you are the most top in the respective area.. until then u have to go by the rules.. no creativity.. no feeling..